To forgive is the one hardest thing in life to let go is the next one.
In the everyday that you do in you live you make choices and whatever choice you make it would sure change the path of your life. Each one of goes along the intersection of life which does not have any description in it either than left or right. I myself have visited that intersection more than the average man would. I sometimes chose a path that would lead me to a good road but sometime i chosen a path where the road is rough sticky and sometimes painful. These are the choices that i made that have made my life a story of unexpected turn of events.
But perhaps the greatest choice that majorly affect my life is choosing to love the person that i promise myself to never let my heart fall into, not because of I don't like the person but because that person is someone that is very much dear to my heart, My best friend. You might be thinking that loving my best fiend is a great thing and at a point it is but to every great thing there is a downfall. I fallen in love with her at the point that i never imagine that i could. things change in the phase of our friendship that occurred unintentionally but forcefully. Being her best friend the one person who she trust completely. I am always one of the first people to know about her love life.
there are times that she tell me information that would really put a sting in my heart. There was a time when she told me that she really like the one person who i despise in my class and the least person I want her to be with. Because I know that person would only put burden in her heart despite of his good looks and sweet tongue his respect for girls is something that I dont like. or maybe... I was just jealous.. because in every time i love a girl in i always get the news that he was the one they like. But this time the thing that i fear the most is the guy is also inlove with my best friend..
Everytime i hear that they are hanging out together i expirience a clinged in my heart that I never felt before. I was for the very first time jelouse about love.
My mind was so not in its former form that in the slightest thing I got mad at her and walked out and just left. that was the most studipest thing that i have ever done..
Ever since that day.. She still hasnt forgiven me. up to this day I am still hoping for her forgiveness. I stand out at her house se eral hours a day i sned her txt messages every hour,
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